Stupid Essays

Ugh. I hate essays. I swear, I have about a million to write in the next two weeks and teachers just keep giving us more and more assignments to do. I am not liking Michel de Montagne right now!! (He invented the essay) Argh! It just makes me so mad, 'cause I have other things to do besides school and it's difficult to get everything done in a day. (ooo, "broken" by seether and amy lee is on right now. Sorry. I like that song.) But yeah, I have a history essay to do for Friday, which has to be 14 pages in length, I just finished a 25 page family studies paper, 2 English essays and then I have to present an English project on Friday, a Family Studies project on Tuesday and another English project the following Monday. Life sucks right now, I tell ya.

Not to mention, my exam schedule is brutal!! Brutal in the sense that there is absolutely no time for me to study. I end classes on June 15, have one exam June 16 and two exams on June 17. It's great 'cause then I'm done school on June 17, but then again, I would rather stay a few extra days to ensure I know my material and can do well and hopefully (but not likely) get a scholarship. Oh man. School is tough. I don't know how I'm going to handle University. Congrats to those who are in or who have finished University successfully!! Anyways, I'll stop complaining now. See ya and have a great night! :) (Another pointless blog. It has got to stop!)

Life's Not Fair

That's an expression we hear everyday. I use it ALL the time! It's so easy to say,'cause you know what? It's true! It is unfair. Things just suck in the world sometimes and we don't always know why. That's what I hate. Why can't I know why? Why can't we prevent things from happening and stop destructive things in our life before they even take place? Well,I don't know why we can't. What's the greatest fear in the world? The unknown. Hey,I'm afraid of the unknown. One of my biggest fear is really deep water, like so deep you can't see the bottom. Why? 'Cause I don't know what's down there or if something's gonna come up and eat me! (Not literally, but you know).

There will always be people suffering in the world and starving, and stuck in war, and being raped or taken advantage of. There are starving children in Africa and the Philippines and Thailand and even in London and it doesn't seem fair that that would happen, because they're innocent children and haven't even been given a chance at what a "normal" life is. It takes place everywhere. Those are the facts of life. They cannot be escaped.

Why am I writing this making people all depressed and what not? To let you know that there's actually good in this world. Right now, all we talk about in school is the bad stuff, like domestic violence and the war in Iraq and stuff. But you know, there are good people out there, though it seems distant. There's people like Compassion and shelters and things that do stuff for homeless people or victims of rape or people who just need help. There are people who do extremely generous things anonymously, just because they want to help and they don't need the recognition of what they've done.

So all I wanted to say is that we should be thinking about the good in the world as well as trying to fix the bad. I hope this doesn't sound like some thing like "we need worldpeace" and blah blah blah, but I just hate (ironically) hearing everyone complaining about how bad life is and how much it sucks. A lot of us don't realize how lucky we are and how much we really do have. Well for some, how much life sucks is up to how much they let it. And agreed, life can suck sometimes and I'm not denying that it can be difficult or whatever, 'cause it can. Just try to see the good, even though it's hard sometimes, it's still possible. There's my message of hope for people....whoohoo. Anyways, have a good day! :) My lunch will be over soon and my friends have abondoned me to go to Montreal for a school trip. Lucky them!! So I thought I'd screw around on here! Hahaha! Anyways...

*sigh*

Well, I'm at school right now. It's nice and early and I have not yet woken up fully. My teacher "strongly advised" us not to come to class today (that's what they say when they can't "officially" cancel class). Ugh. I have nothing to do because all of my work is on my computer at home. I told her I'd just go to the library and "research" information for other classes. This is my "research". :P

Man, I hate this. This is why school sucks. You know, I could be at home actually doing work, because time doesn't exactly go at my pace here. I have WAY too much to do and I have 10 pages to go on one thing and it's due tomorrow; an English essay to edit about a million times for Friday; an English presentation on Hamlet sometime (I don't know when); and a History essay (14 pages) due next Friday (which I have only written the conclusion). I'll pay someone to write my History essay (it's on the Great Depression)!! I'm only kidding.

On a better note, we get to finish Hamlet today. Haha! What a messed up guy. Since I'm bored and have nothing to do, I'm going to explain to you Hamlet. Well, in the beginning (where have I heard that before?), we meet King Hamlet (not Hamlet, the Hamlet that Hamlet is about, but his father, Hamlet. Got that?). But King Hamlet's a ghost, 'cause he's dead. So, blah blah blah. Claudius (King Hamlet's brother) decides to marry Gertrude (King Hamlet's wife). Hamlet, (the Hamlet that Hamlet is about) is mad at Claudius, because now he's his uncle AND his step father. Talk about incest. Eww. Anyways, Hamlet hates him. Blah blah blah. He decides to kill Claudius. So he makes this play about Claudius and his mother and it talks about how he knows that Claudius killed his father by putting poision in his ear, so that he and Gertrude could get married. Dum dum dum!

Well, later on, Hamlet's in his mother's room talking to her and he says how he hates that they got married and such. Then he sees his father's ghost again, but this time he's the only one who can see it! Is Hamlet insane or just pretending? Hmmmm....Anyways, Hamlet thinks he hears Claudius coming, but it's Polonius (right hand man to the King (Claudius)). Hamlet stabs Polonius repeatedly and then is like, oh crap, I just killed my girlfriend's father. That won't go over well. Ophelia (his girlfriend) goes insane and drowns herself. Nice. Then, Laertes (polonius's son) finds out Hamlet killed his father and caused his sister to go insane. So, he teams up with Claudius and comes up with this master plan to kill Hamlet by sword fighting with him and dipping the tip of the sword in poison and by putting poison in his wine. Well that's all 'cause that's as far as I've gotten. Hahaha. Oh man. Sorry for this. Again, I'm really bored and have nothing important to do.

Now that you know about Hamlet, sort of, one of you can go write my exam for me! Thanks!! :) Hehehe. See you all later!

I hate it when that happens!

Argh! For those of you who listen to FM96, you would have heard about the "connect the rock block" thing. Well, after hearing the first song and the title of the second, I knew the connection. It was that they both mentioned Jesus in the songs. I thought to myself, "that has to be the answer". But then I thought, "No. That's too easy." So I didn't call in. Well, lo! and behold, it was!!! Argh, I could've won! Well that was my insignificant rant of the day. I was just working on my Family Studies ISP, which I am on page 11 of and I still have about 10 more pages to go (literally)!!! I have to go to work now. Sorry for the pointless blogging. I have nothing "special" to say today. :)

It's no wonder people hate Christians

In history class we've been talking a lot about Christianity and the Renaissance, etc. Back during this time, there was a lot of confusion as to what a true Christian was. The priests (Christianity was predominantly known as Catholocism) were basically corrupt. They took advantage of the fact that very few people could read back then because of low educational training. Those who could read and write were mostly the priests and the nobility. Therefore, they could use this to their own advantage and define for themsleves what a true Christian was. They would tell the people to purchase indulgences (pieces of paper saying their sins were forgiven and it guaranteed them entrance into Heaven) just so that they could have more money. They believed in material goods, such as painting the Cistine Chapel to make it the most elaborate church in Europe. The priests lived very well, too. There were also a lot of philosophers born in this era, such as Martin Luther, Martin Bucer, John Calvin, etc. They all had their own beliefs and people still couldn't read well, so they didn't have any idea what the Bible actually said. They were being told about purgatory, that church was wrong, that priests knew nothing, to follow the priests, to create their own religion, etc. So the people were confused and it was a difficult time for Christians, because no one actually knew what a true Christian was.

Therefore, the people were manipulated because of their ignorance and therefore, we are taught in school that the Catholics/Christians were bad for this, which they were, but that's our only impression of Christianity from a historical point of view. Sure we briefly talked about Christ and the Cross, but even then, the teacher stated it as either myth, or just some "nice story" that some believed to be true. This is why Christians have a bad rep. People aren't being taught the truth. As well, people are claiming, in history and in the present, that they are Christians, when in fact, they just claim the title and that's it.

Take for instance the Conquistadors. They called themselves Christians, but you know what they did? They went and killed several cultures, such as the Aztecs, Mayans, Incas, and other tribes. They said that they were "doing the work of God", but it was really out of their greed and lust that they created genocide among those tribes. Last time I checked, the Bible didn't say that we should be going around killing those who do not believe. Judgement is not our job, that's God's.

As well, people nowadays confuse themselves as Christians when they have no example to do so. They go around saying they're Christians, but they don't act like ones. I'm guilty of this as well. I use to just go to church, just because. I liked church and I liked worshipping and everything else to do with church. But then I would go to school and not act like a Christian at all. Actually, it was kinda bad, because all my friends knew I was a Christian and everytime I messed up, they would be like, "oh I thought you were a Christian". This made me realize that I need to be an example to others and that's what I'm trying to do now. So i think the reason people don't like Christians or think they're hypocritical, is because it's true. We can be. The thing is, we're only human. We do make mistakes and have to repent often, I'm sure. The thing is, it's too easy to condemn Christians and people don't really understand why they are or how hard it is to be one.

On a different note, I was at this presentation at school where this old woman was speaking about her story, because she's a survivor of the Holocaust. Her story was amazing and I cannot believe that she survived through the conditions she spoke of. Anyways, she said that people have been saying to her, "where was God?" But she asked them a different question, which I thought was very interesting. She asked them, "where was man?" I thought this was very true, because she went on to explain that God was always there and he didn't create the Holocaust. Man did. She said that man was responsible and other countries never came in and helped them. It wasn't God's responsibiity for the Holocaust, man created it and man had the power to change it. So the question is, where was man? Where were other people who were against the whole thing? So I think it's important for people to think about who's actually to blame before they point their fingers at God. God gave man free will. We have the power to change and we should use it to help others instead of judging them like we so often do. So what we, as Christians, need to do, is to make an example of ourselves and stop telling people that we're Christians when we don't make an example of one. That's why people are so confused and hate Christians. So, since we have the power to change, we should stop the stereotype that Christians are hypocritical and we should act like TRUE Christians.

On the other end of the scale...

Well, my previous post, like two minutes ago, was all nice and stuff. Well, not this one. Oh my goodness! Okay, I was at work today and it was very slow, and really boring. Well, this mother brings her little boy in and he's so cute! Anyways, he had to go to the washroom, so I took him and well, to say the least, he didn't make it. So the mother comes in and his pants are soaking wet, obviously. You know what she does? She yells at ME! Can someone please explain how her own child's inability to use the "potty" is my fault?

I did everything I could to help, I even gave her one of my work shirts so that he could wear it over top of himself. Was that good enough? NO! She just had to get mad at me and say that he has to sit farther on the stupid toilet. Well you know what? I don't care! It's her child, she can train him to sit on the friggin' toilet himself!

Sorry, but some parents are really ignorant to how a daycare drop-off center works. It's not as easy as they think. Well, that's it and I'll stop complaining right...............now!

And the winner goes to...

Parents!

My thing is about parents today. No it's not a bash, as you all may be thinking. See, I would like to acknowledge my parents for all they do/done, 'cause they've done A LOT! No, my parents aren't going to be reading this, and no I'm not doing it for some sort of pride issue to be acknowledged for writing this, 'cause I don't want to be acknowledged. My parents do a lot for me and I just want you to take the time to think about all your parents do for you. I'm sure I'm not the easiest kid to raise, actually I know for a fact, but still, I'm grateful for having parents who care about me and where I am and what I'm doing. I'll admit, it seems unreasonable sometimes when my parents are always on my case about something or they want to know everything and frankly, I just don't want to tell them everything!

But, nevertheless, I never really realized that I need them more than anything and that what they do, is in fact, out of their unconditional love for me. So here's my thing just thanking them and letting you all know that it's a good idea to do the same. A lot of the time we forget how hard it is for them to be parents. Of course I don't fully know 'cause obviously I'm not a parent, but I can only imagine it would suck sometimes. You know, a lifetime commitment. It's hard, I'm sure.

So, next time you think your parents are unreasonable or unfair, think about why. (and remind me once in awhile, 'cause I know it's difficult to do!) Peace out everyone.

Nothing Special

Well, guys, this blog isn't really about anything special. I have been extremely busy with school and such, because my teachers decided to disallow me to have a life. Great, eh? See, yesterday my English teacher (whom I really like, 'cause he's a good teacher) decided to give us my third English assignment. I have to do a 30 minute seminar and act a Shakespearian play, Hamlet, scene thing, which really sucks. Plus my ISP essay and another essay on Hamlet. On top of that, I have my family studies ISP report and History report due, which has to be 14 pages long. I'm screwed.

So, I apologize to anyone who I might be angry with or yell at or not be the friendliest person. The last week has not been a very good one, but I won't elaborate. I apologize specifically to those who were at worship practice last night 'cause I may have been really mean/snobby, I'm not sure. So, my apologies.

But, anyways, it's the long weekend and that gives me extra time to finish assignments (or start them ;) ) *sigh* this blog was kinda boring and I'm procrastinating, yet again. So I'll see you all later! :)

Are We Really That Mean?

Man, I have another problem with people. This time it's with girls. I'm sorry girls, not all of you, but I mean a lot! Probably including myself. Well, most likely actually.

Well, me being a good student and leaving the classroom to go sit with friends in the caf, I came upon an unusual discussion. See, my friends were ranting about someone they didn't like. Not unusual to hear this coming from them (since we do it all the time, me included) I didn't really think it weird. But the thing is, they were talking about a good friend of ours. It made me realize how much girls stab each other in the back. It bugs me because it goes to show you never really know who your true friends are. I'm kinda sick and tired of it actually, 'cause they pretend everything is okay, and then the person leaves and they start going on about how much they hate this person and this person sucks because of this....

The thing is, I'm well aware that I do it to. Not to their same extent, but I still gossip about people and it's not right. I just think that girls are really mean, because they don't always tell straight out what they're thinking of you, which makes it really difficult. No, I'm not saying ALL girls are like this, 'cause they're not. I've just noticed it within some girls and I think it's stupid. I mean, as soon as someone does something wrong or stupid, or says something "weird", people just abondon their friends and trash talk them instead.

Maybe I should speak up. I don't know. I have a tendency of sitting back and listening instead of contributing. But I'm probably just as guilty as them. Like the saying goes, "There are no innocent by-standers." It's true. So I guess my point is, think before you trash a friend, or anyone for that matter. 'Cause it's really easy to. Trust me, I know.

My Thoughts

I had this discussion a long time ago with Jamie and Ariel and they seemed to disagree with me. But I was recently talking to some friends of mine about it and just thought I'd present my thoughts to you all to see what you have to say about it.

Well, I think that it is impossible for any human being to like everybody. Sure, you can love them, because God says we're supposed to, but it is impossible to actually like everybody. See, I was in this situation a little while ago, where I really didn't like this person (we're gonna call them Bob). Bob has a very different personality then me, and it doesn't really seem to "click" with mine. I find it difficult to tolerate Bob for long periods of time, because we have such conflicting personalities. Mind you, though I do not particularly like Bob, I am still nice to them, I'd just be a jerk if I wasn't.

My point is, you cannot like everybody; it's just impossible. But you do have to love them and be nice to them. Just because you do not particularly like a person, does not, by any means, give you the "right" to be mean to them or hurt them in any way. Sure, there are things you can see in people you don't like that are good (qualities I mean), but still, that does not mean you actually "like" the person. You can learn to respect everybody, but you really don't have to build a friendship or any kind of relationship with everybody you meet.

There's lots of people that I don't exactly like, but I'm still nice to them. Actually, I'm more mean to the people I do like, then those I don't! Hahaha....funny how that works. No, I'm not saying if I'm nice to you it means I don't like you. So for all those people who are thinking that, STOP! I'm more talking people like, parents or something at work that always have to find something wrong, or just people who bother me for no apparent reason.

So, yeah. If you agree then cool. If not, then cool.

Work

You know, most people don't like their part-time jobs, OR their full-time jobs for that matter. Well, I do! I just got home from work a little while ago. Children running around, falling down, getting hurt, comforting them, feeding them, changing them, reading to them, holding them...it's all part of my "job". Somehow, I don't really see it as work. Sure that's what it's called. But it's actually fun. For the most part I look forward to it. See, my co-worker quit and so now I am alone on Monday nights; no matter how many or how few, they're all my responsibility. Haha...some parents walk in and there's about 15 kids running around and they're like, "how do you do it?" Hahaha...all part of my job, right? Well, I'd like to think of it as a talent. For instance, I've managed to prevent a baby from falling off a chair, feed one kid, tell the boys to stop throwing the balls out the window and pick up Isabelle, all at the same time. Pretty cool, eh?!

Tonight, there was this little boy, Jalen, who is 2 1/2 years old. He is the cutest, smartest little boy I've ever met! Although, I was talking to his father today and he told me that he has this very rare disease (I forget what it's called. Started with an "e" I think. But anyways...) where he cannot sweat, because his skin cells are closed. Therefore, he cannot play outside for very long and he constantly has to drink fluids. Also, he barely has any hair, and none on his arms or legs, and he doesn't have any teeth and never will. Excpet for these two teeth at the front that look exactly like dracula teeth. He gets dentures next year! Poor little guy. But you know, even with his condition, he's still the sweetest little boy you'll ever meet! He can even pronounce my name! (which is rare among children) :P

I definitely want children later on! Hahaha....so, I highly dismiss the idea that I have to go to "work". It's so much fun! I mean, playing catch/volleyball/basketball/soccer, building forts, being buried under stuffed animals, watching movies, reading books, playing with toys, kids cuddling in your lap, etc. and getting paid for it? What more could I ask for? I don't understand people who hate children. They're like kittens: Too cute to ignore!

If I ever complain about my job, I give you permission to hit me!

Today was the hardest day of my life.

Everything I know, or have ever known, is dying. Gone. Ceases to exist. I don't want it to be this way. I don't want to leave. I like my church. Why does this have to happen? I don't understand. Well, I understand the reasons, but I don't understand why now? It's such a bad time. I guess, never would be the best time.

I don't like change. I don't adapt well to it. I don't want to meet new people. I like the people I already know. I've known them all for my life, practically. Everything's going to be different. Forever it's been my family in with the leadership and running things. I like that! I don't want to go to a new church and listening to new music and have to watch people I don't know lead everything. I like walking into a church and feeling like I'm home. Now I can't do that. I'm a guest and it sucks. I'm used to being able to do everthing and knowing the rules and being able to play hockey and have fun...not some place where you listen to some guy preach and then you all go your seperate ways. That's what it's going to be like. For the first while anyways.

I don't want to leave everyone. Sure I'll see them, but not like normal. It'll be more a planned function, rather than a spontaneous get together where we pick a house and go. I don't want new friends or meet new people. The only way I want to do that, is if we're adding on to the people I already know. Not being the "new person". That sucks.

It hurts and I want it to go away. I want things to be normal. Every Sunday from now 'til the end of June will be us trying to do everthing we've known for the last time. I hate it.

Where do we go from here?

God has plans and we must trust him, I know that. But I don't like it. I want his plans to be in our old church with everyone I know. But, things change in life and they always turn out, even though now it seems they won't. It'll be okay.

I love you guys. I always will.

The Future

I fear for the future of our world. I look at the grade 9's of my school and all I can do is shake my head. I mean, they have the worst attitudes EVER. They have no respect for anyone or anything. We had this multicultural assembly, where we had all these different people from around the world do dances and speak and stuff and there were these grade 9's sitting behind me and all they did was make fun of the costumes, or the dances, or the people's accents. I swear if I wasn't a nice person, I would have turned around and hit them all. They were being so rude!

Also, the girls think that their only purpose at this point is to look good for the guys. Sure, looking good isn't bad, but you know what? After every period you don't have to go to the bathroom and re-apply the layer of makeup you put on and hour ago! They just dress terribly for their age and they think that's what guys want. Well, you know what? It is! Grade 9 boys that is. See, there was this girl in the washroom balling her eyes out because her boyfriend had just dumped her. I felt bad for her because she was upset, but then she started saying how much she loved him and I was thinking, "he's a grade 9 BOY, do you really think he wants a serious relationship?" My educated guess is, no.

The guys of this generation (and by guys, I pretty much mean boys) have absolutely no respect, whatsoever, for girls either. Sorry to be bias, but it's the truth. When I was in grade 9, there was this girl and she was, well, overweight to say the least, and the guys made fun of her SO badly, that she left crying and dropped the class. AND...the teacher (who was a guy coincidently) said NOTHING!! If I wasn't so shy and it wasn't my first day of high school, I would've said something. But I mean still, guys shouldn't be like that. It's just not right.

Well that's my thing for today. Sorry it's so long, but oh well!

Alright, I have one little complaint (what else is knew, right?). Ok. We have all this wonderful, hot weather that everybody has been dying to see for the past 5 months, because of the snowy, sloppy, minus 30 degree weather we used to have. Well, now I'm hearing all of you people say how it's "too hot" and "too humid" to do anything. Well you know what? SUCK IT UP!! It's beautiful weather. Enjoy it. Stop hiding in your little air conditioned houses (sorry, I don't have air conditioning, so I'm a little hostile) and go outside and do something productive!

The only people I exempt from this complaint is those who have breathing problems, such as asthma, because it is difficult to breathe in humid weather. And to those, I feel really bad for. Otherwise, you guys should be enjoying the weather. I went outside today (while you were all at school...ha ha!) and it was SO nice to be able to wear shorts!

Another thing to all you tanners, if I see any of you coming into work to go for a tan when it's nice and sunny outside (which I have seen), I will not allow you in!! :P That also bugs me. Lets think about the logic here: Natural sunlight, free, takes less time, doesn't cause cancer as easily and you can do it in the comfort of your own backyard. On the other hand: Have to pay, causes cancer (yes it does), hassle of going, your tan looks more fake (maybe that's cause it IS!) and everyone uses the beds (ewww!). So, tan with REAL sun. It's the logical thing to do.

Whoops!

Sorry guys, forgot to tell you that my name is really simple...ooooo...and it may change in the future if I become more creative!

So it begins...

Why, oh, why have I gotten myself into this? Ah well. See, you all, who have blogs, seem to be having fun with this stuff, therefore, I decided to join you all. Funny how that works. Anyways, this is the beginning and I hope you all have fun with it!! :)